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The holiday Ralph allowed himself was passing rapidly away; but,
before he returned to his chambers and his hard work, he had promised
to spend a few more days with Ellinor; and it suited him to go
straight from the duke's to Ford Bank. He left the castle soon after
breakfast--the luxurious, elegant breakfast, served by domestics who
performed their work with the accuracy and perfection of machines.
He arrived at Ford Bank before the man-servant had quite finished the
dirtier part of his morning's work, and he came to the glass-door in
his striped cotton jacket, a little soiled, and rolling up his
working apron. Ellinor was not yet strong enough to get up and go
out and gather flowers for the rooms, so those left from yesterday
were rather faded; in short, the contrast from entire completeness
and exquisite freshness of arrangement struck forcibly upon Ralph's
perceptions, which were critical rather than appreciative; and, as
his affections were always subdued to his intellect, Ellinor's lovely
face and graceful figure flying to meet him did not gain his full
approval, because her hair was dressed in an old-fashioned way, her
waist was either too long or too short, her sleeves too full or too
tight for the standard of fashion to which his eye had been
accustomed while scanning the bridesmaids and various highborn ladies
at Stokely Castle.
But, as he had always piqued himself upon being able to put on one
side all superficial worldliness in his chase after power, it did not
do for him to shrink from seeing and facing the incompleteness of
moderate means. Only marriage upon moderate means was gradually
becoming more distasteful to him.
Nor did his subsequent intercourse with Lord Bolton, the Cabinet
minister before mentioned, tend to reconcile him to early matrimony.
At Lord Bolton's house he met polished and intellectual society, and
all that smoothness in ministering to the lower wants in eating and
drinking which seems to provide that the right thing shall always be
at the right place at the right time, so that the want of it shall
never impede for an instant the feast of wit or reason; while, if he
went to the houses of his friends, men of the same college and
standing as himself, who had been seduced into early marriages, he
was uncomfortably aware of numerous inconsistencies and hitches in
their menages. Besides, the idea of the possible disgrace that might
befall the family with which he thought of allying himself haunted
him with the tenacity and also with the exaggeration of a nightmare,
whenever he had overworked himself in his search after available and
profitable knowledge, or had a fit of indigestion after the exquisite
dinners he was learning so well to appreciate.
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