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She sat on in the window-seat; dreaming waking dreams of future
happiness. She kept losing herself in such thoughts, and became
almost afraid of forgetting why she sat there. Presently she felt
cold, and got up to fetch a shawl, in which she muffled herself and
resumed her place. It seemed to her growing very late; the moonlight
was coming fuller and fuller into the garden and the blackness of the
shadow was more concentrated and stronger. Surely Mr. Dunster could
not have gone away along the dark shrubbery-path so noiselessly but
what she must have heard him? No! there was the swell of voices
coming up through the window from her father's study: angry voices
they were; and her anger rose sympathetically, as she knew that her
father was being irritated. There was a sudden movement, as of
chairs pushed hastily aside, and then a mysterious unaccountable
noise--heavy, sudden; and then a slight movement as of chairs again;
and then a profound stillness. Ellinor leaned her head against the
side of the window to listen more intently, for some mysterious
instinct made her sick and faint. No sound--no noise. Only by-and-by
she heard, what we have all heard at such times of intent
listening, the beating of the pulses of her heart, and then the
whirling rush of blood through her head. How long did this last?
She never knew. By-and-by she heard her father's hurried footstep in
his bedroom, next to hers; but when she ran thither to speak to him,
and ask him what was amiss--if anything had been--if she might come
to him now about Mr. Livingstone's letter, she found that he had gone
down again to his study, and almost at the same moment she heard the
little private outer door of that room open; some one went out, and
then there were hurried footsteps along the shrubbery-path. She
thought, of course, that it was Mr. Dunster leaving the house; and
went back for Mr. Livingstone's letter. Having found it, she passed
through her father's room to the private staircase, thinking that if
she went by the more regular way, she would have run the risk of
disturbing Miss Monro, and perhaps of being questioned in the
morning. Even in passing down this remote staircase, she trod softly
for fear of being overheard. When she entered the room, the full
light of the candles dazzled her for an instant, coming out of the
darkness. They were flaring wildly in the draught that came in
through the open door, by which the outer air was admitted; for a
moment there seemed no one in the room, and then she saw, with
strange sick horror, the legs of some one lying on the carpet behind
the table. As if compelled, even while she shrank from doing it, she
went round to see who it was that lay there, so still and motionless
as never to stir at her sudden coming. It was Mr. Dunster; his head
propped on chair-cushions, his eyes open, staring, distended. There
was a strong smell of brandy and hartshorn in the room; a smell so
powerful as not to be neutralized by the free current of night air
that blew through the two open doors. Ellinor could not have told
whether it was reason or instinct that made her act as she did during
this awful night. In thinking of it afterwards, with shuddering
avoidance of the haunting memory that would come and overshadow her
during many, many years of her life, she grew to believe that the
powerful smell of the spilt brandy absolutely intoxicated her--an
unconscious Rechabite in practice. But something gave her a presence
of mind and a courage not her own. And though she learnt to think
afterwards that she had acted unwisely, if not wrongly and wickedly,
yet she marvelled, in recalling that time, how she could have then
behaved as she did. First of all she lifted herself up from her
fascinated gaze at the dead man, and went to the staircase door, by
which she had entered the study, and shut it softly. Then she went
back--looked again; took the brandy-bottle, and knelt down, and tried
to pour some into the mouth; but this she found she could not do.
Then she wetted her handkerchief with the spirit, and moistened the
lips; all to no purpose; for, as I have said before, the man was
dead--killed by rupture of a vessel of the brain; how occasioned I
must tell by-and-by. Of course, all Ellinor's little cares and
efforts produced no effect; her father had tried them before--vain
endeavours all, to bring back the precious breath of life! The poor
girl could not bear the look of those open eyes, and softly,
tenderly, tried to close them, although unconscious that in so doing
she was rendering the pious offices of some beloved hand to a dead
man. She was sitting by the body on the floor when she heard steps
coming with rushing and yet cautious tread, through the shrubbery;
she had no fear, although it might be the tread of robbers and
murderers. The awfulness of the hour raised her above common fears;
though she did not go through the usual process of reasoning, and by
it feel assured that the feet which were coming so softly and swiftly
along were the same which she had heard leaving the room in like
manner only a quarter of an hour before.
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